My Ah Gong proudly declared this to my Ah Ma the other day:


"I lub you my darling. <3"


.. in his hokkien accented English.


And my Ah Ma blushed.


Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.. I think I have the cutest pair of grandparents on earth. =D

I realized I'm a pretty idealistic kinda person, wanting everything to be perfect.


Don't get me wrong, I'm not a perfectionist when it comes to not so relevant stuff like getting all the words aligned to a certain line in an assignment kinda perfectionist. But rather, the want for things to remain the way they are, or change for the better.


If something changes for the worse, I would get pretty upset.


As I discussed the topic of death in a rather incoherent manner at 5am a few days ago, I kept thinking of the situation of losing someone dear to me, and I got pretty upset at the fact that no one would stay alive forever, and it's only a matter of time that someone dear would leave.


So I try to grasp onto everyone dear, trying to spend as much quality time as possible with them, before the helplessness sets in, realizing that there's only one of me, and I cant split myself into a few Kimberlys so as to better make use of the time.


Senseless worrying I know.


As Yishi said, "Don't worry about things that you cant control." (a quote from her prof), which is really true, but sometimes, you just cant help but worry you know?


And so with this post, I apologize to everyone dear that I had been mean to, that I had said some nasty stuff to and hurt their feelings. I don't mean it (unless I detest you, like a particular someone that just render me speechless with the absurd stuff that she does).


Hurtful stuff are usually said in the heat of the moment that makes me regret my words like crazy. And it's usually the dearest and the closest that gets the most of it. And it really kills me that I cant bring myself to apologize when the things have already blown over yet the guilt still ravages me like crazy.


I blame the pride in me that is stopping me from apologizing.


Sigh.

Don't know why, but I have been spending more time at my Ah Ma house than at home lately. Maybe it's the want to be near my ah gong and ah ma. And Ah Gong seems really delighted to have us (i.e. his grandkids) around, so... ya. Reason for my 离家出走'ing recently. Ha.


And I realized, I have this tendency to feed the fishes at my ah ma house. I don't know if they are perpetually hungry, or they forgot that they have eaten or what, but whenever I walk near them, they would rush towards me like a school of hungry.. well, fishes.




The tank of fishies




Rushing towards me.


Eh, while taking this pic, I felt like I was playing the K800i game of capturing the most no. of fishes underwater again. HAHA.




Yeah, Xiaodi, the one that you set the high score in my phone, and I had a terrible time trying to top that score. =S


But anyway, I digressed.


I have this feeling that at the rate that I'm feeding them. READ: every few hours when I walk past the fish tank, and feeling darn sad that those fishies are starving; I would kill them real soon.


HAHA.


OH ya. I just have to blog this.


I HAVE A DAMN HIP HOP AH MA!!!!


She plays DS LITE OK!!!


HAHAHA..


Don't believe me?




Concentrating so hard on the game, yet smiling ocassionally.


Hip hop ba? =DDDD


Oh yeah, and here's my beloved Jay Chou's album.




So hot!


And it includes this damn cool deck of poker cards, with his face on it!!




Hohoho.


Anyway, was studying with Jas and Grass the other day.




Grass Jas Me


When we decided to take some cool photos.




=))




With a peace sign




And another peace sign




And a sad photo of my hp hanging. =(((


Jas tried to get a pic of my cleavage...



Which I hid. HA.


And let me introduce 2 of my favourite food.


1. CLODHOPPERS




It is typed in caps. CLODHOPPERS. HAHA.


It's super nice la. But eating such a big pack alone can kill, so it's recommended to share with someone. i.e. GRASS. =D


2) I-Scream




Remember this ice cream that used to come over to Can A? It has disappeared from NTU totally! Or rather, I don't know where it's hiding whenever it comes over to NTU now, so I havent been eating it for a darn long time.


But I found it again at SIM!


吃了有个幸福的感觉哦！


And we cant resist taking a pic with our 幸福的感觉.








=)))

It's freakingly 5 in the morning and I cant sleep.


I cant sleep, yet I cant study 'cause of this damn bloated feeling in my head as I NEED to sleep, but I cant sleep.


Argh.


I should stop drinking potent coffees that keep me awake for the whole night, then I would have to wake up darn late next morning.


Even the standard of my posts drops with the inability to sleep.


Now, I don't even know what the hell am I going on about.. Omgosh. It's all the potent coffee's doing. My brain is dead while my eyes are wide open. I've been playing the brainless Zookeeper on my DS for the past few hours before deciding to blog.


Ohhhh ohhhh ohhhh.. I should blog about life and death. Something that I had thought about long ago, yet havent had a thought about in recent years till the other day when Grass and I were talking about it.


And I realize, I don't have a definite view about life and death now.


I used to believe in life after death, whereby the good ones would go to heaven, and the nasty ones would go to hell. That was before my friend told me about God saving only those who are Christians at the end of world, whereas the ones that arent Christians would be left to die.


And I was like, "Damn. I guess I'm the last one to be saved 'cause I don't believe in any religion."


Then it got me thinking, what about those that are murderers/rapists/kidnappers that are Christians? You mean God will save them, and leave kind hearted non-Christians to die? Like abit not right, right?


I know I might look back at this post in years to come, and might regret whatever I posted today at 5 in the morn, or I might laugh at this childish thought, or whatever. But whatever la huh. I'm just expressing my POV.


Then came the notion about heaven and hell. And reincarnation. If there's no reincarnation, and everyone goes to heaven, won't the heaven explode with the number of souls there?


And if there's no reincarnation, where do all the souls come from? Do we have a soul? How does it appear from the moment that we are born? Or from the moment the sperm fertilize the egg? If there's no souls, or rather, if from the moment we die, the soul will fizz out into nothing, why are there ghosts/spirits?


And IF there is no reincarnation, does it mean that God has to make a new soul for each new baby born? Is that why there is a decline in birth rates now? 'cause there's like simply too many new souls to be made?


Omgosh. Loads of questions, with no definite answers. I'm still in the midst of searching, and being a person of science, it's easy to forget this side of life while being caught up in the search for scientific evidences, like what I have been doing for the past few years.


And I guess I shall sleep, or I wouldnt be able to wake up till 3pm tomorrow morn.

It's about 4 hours away from my immuno quiz, and here I am, blogging.


I seriously need to get my priorties right. But after all the studying of immuno, the T cells, B cells, plasma cells, T reg cells, Th1 cells, Th2 cells, Th17 cells, cytokines and chemokines (that is seriously killing all my brain cells, and trying to comprehend the latest lect is sufficient to murder me.


And in a summary of my nearly 3.5 years as a uni student, I think the French accented english ranks the highest in my "Accent that kills my brain cells while trying to decipher what's he saying". Closely followed by German accented ones.


Like omgosh, I'm supposed to decipher what's he rattling off at such a high speed while trying to understand the new stuff before I copy down on my notes? There seems to be a blockage somewhere, usually stuck at the understanding of what's he saying at all 'cause the accent is too thick.


Universities worldwide should consider having Understanding Accents 101 course to aid the students in understanding all the stuff man. Otherwise I'm paying so much yet I don't understand at all, which is so URGH.


Oh well, whatever. I had better continue with the immuno. =S

After much procrastination, I finally went to make the Photofunia pics.


Don't go crazy after seeing all my chio pics ok? =D




Blue eyes. Woooo.. Not mine though.










I'm selling fruit juice ok!







I think the guy is stunned to see me so happily clutching a piece of tissue paper. HA.




Chio.










Hee. I like this.




My side view must be so pretty that so many people are scruntinizing it.





This is so fun sia. Ha.


Grass, I don't have as many as yours la. My zipai really damn few can!! =DDDD

There's something about spending money that makes me feel damn happy.


Seems like the act of taking money outta my wallet to pay for something secretes endorphins in me, making me go super high.


So far, for today, I spent on:


1) Shoe Bag (yes SJ, I finally got it. HAHAHA.)


2) Jay Chou's 魔杰座 album. It's sooooooooo good that I just had to get it. So, Jianzhong, I never 支持盗版 k!!! HAHAHA..


3) Manicure. I just love the way my nails sparkle in the light. I gotta find out what top coat the manicurist use man. Ahhhhhhhhhhh..


4) Having my brows done


5) Cutting hair


All these in a short day! And all within 4 hours!! But the release of endorphins is so high till I am still feeling high after so long.


Or maybe it's just listening to Jay Chou's latest album is putting me into such a good mood. Ho ho ho.



And one final thing:



HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY JAS MY HUGS HUGGER!!!!!





Happy birthday my dear~ =)))

I just went to the hospital to visit my Ah Gong.


Seeing him so pale, and weak, so unlike his robust rosy grinning self just filled me with so much pain.


=(


Ah Gong, though you'll never read this, but please recover soon. I love you.

Ok, I'm not a huge fan of posting videos on my blog 'cause I don't like to read blogs with only videos and videos and videos (no offence to anyone out there! Just my personal preference.), so I refrain from posting any videos at all.


One reason is that I might not share the same taste as the blogger on their choice of music, so clicking on it would just be a waste of my 3minutes or so that can be better spent watching 3 minuts of Ugly Betty.


Another reason is 'cause... I don't know. I just don't click on those videos la. Unless the blogger happen to write what's the video is about to pique my interest etc, then I would click on the "PLAY" oh so curiously.


Obviously this rule doesnt apply to me when I'm embedding some song on my blog 'cause they would always play automatically as I WANT YOU to hear the song that I lurrrrve so much. Yeah, I'm annoying that way. Ha.


But today isnt about me criticizing other people's blogging style. Rather, it's about me going to break one of my self-made rules on blogging. (Another day, another post!).


Here's a favourite video of all time!




Love situation by Arashi


I have been watching this exact same video for a few months now, and I still havent gotten sick of it yet. Yes, I'm a little nuts, thank you very much.


And I know nobody would gush about how cute Arashi is, or how amazing the dance stage is, or how the 2min 58secs part is the start of my favourite portion of the song, or how 3min 11sec is like the hottest/cutest/most amazing part 'cause Matsumoto Jun is soooooooooooo cute unless:


1) They have watched Gokusen 1.



This show is damn freaking nice!


2) They have fell in love with Sawada Shin in Gokusen acted by Matsumoto Jun.



Ahh.. The moody broody look.


3) They then went to wiki Matsumoto Jun and read every single word of that article.


4) And they then watched Hana Yori Dango (for the sake of MatsuJun) and fell in love with Domyouji Tsukasa acted by Matsumoto Jun again.



Ok, I know the curls can go. Blame it on the guy that wrote this comic!


5) They then spent hours gushing about Matsu Jun with Erinna babe, who passed them LOADS of youtube links to watch about Arashi.


6) And the obsession started to spread from MatsuJun to the rest of the members of Arashi that MatsuJun is part of, and that marked the start of watching other Jap dramas that have other members of Arashi.


or



7) They simply share the same taste in music as me and have bothered to click on the "PLAY" button.




Ay, just click on the damn button and listen to the damn song la. I typed so much crap! That alone should have some credit right?


p/s: They can really dance! *swoons*

Have I ever mentioned that I love the Carpenters? Like really love love love love them.


They are so ever soothing, so calming for my soul. But not everybody knows how to appreciate it. So.. whatever la huh. But here's one of my favs. High up on the list with "There's a Kind of Hush", "Mr Postman", "Only Yesterday" and "So Close"





Goodbye to Love


Kinda sad really.


Moving onto happier stuff.


The other time when Jas and Grass came over to PS to look for me (yeah, I know.. it's eons ago..), I went over to her house to stay. And we took quite a number of nutty pics.



The not ready pose



The Kim is constipated and Jas laughing like nuts pose



The Kim is trying to lick Jas' arm while Jas is still laughing pose



The Kim is next, trying to bite Jas' arm and she is still laughing pose


After Jas' arm got bitten by me (yeah, I'm a biter!), she gave up and went into recluse and I decided to rest for abit...



Resting Kim pose


Before we came back for a final laugh



Oooh. I love love love this pic. So candid and natural. =D


Okok. I'm not that natural. But who cares.


So Jas retired for the night, and I continued with the zi high'ness.



Biting



Bleh


And my fav of all time...



Showing off my pearly whites.


Don't know who so brilliant only took my beautiful teeth. Ha.


Ahhh.. How I wish exams would never come between us having fun. I miss going nuts with Jas.